Paul Sharits (1943-1993)

Nov 13 [long Weds teaching—tired—frustrated—up till 4 am with B, Kathy and Salvo—end: beating colander and cutting want while B watches]

[Ill with cold or flu-sinus, headache, backache, fatigue]

Dec 2: Family party (aunts-uncles)-I am very alienated—accused of trying to seduce a young female cousin (I was close to her but perhaps not trying to seduce[?])—In the end I declare I’m through with such get togethers.

[Have had other dreams of feeling strained in such family contents—always did feel some alienation there]

Dec 9: Again: [strained in such family contents—always did feel some alienation there] Family/at dinner I’m late/ Mon had Chris

Dec 8: Absurd church service/mass—meet lovely girl; lost to me, frustration.

Group: “Depression-procrastination- fatigue-drunk”: NYC: contract/ Frank, drawing

S. Lawrence problem

Pre Xmas-Dream of eating—girls legs

After- Girl “octopus” on head-pizza